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have developed a terribly disgustingly huge appetite for food over the past week. am at my prime now where i am wolloping down any thing in sight. growing fat and wondering how i'm going to lose it in time for my next encounter with the mirror or the outside world.

pimples are oozing out of my face yet again. i do hope it's just the shampoo (old one ran out). grosssss.

had a damn shiok run at macr. yestd. just like the good old days, cept that i couldn't hear jl's breathing and cheers and reminders to maintain my running form. after finishing my run i felt dead beat. haha. which is a pretty nice feeling. i mean after the run and all.. speaking of which.. i miss jl tonnes and i still haven't heard from her :( which makes me sad and scared and worried.

i hope this hunger thing passes soon so that i can stop growing horizontally. we're leaving for china in just over a week! i rather dislike flights and travelling now. they remind me of things i don't want to remember. and holidays always mean an increase in the reading on the scale so oh crap i shall attempt to break a personal record and lose weight while we're over there. no soft ground over there too! neh. maybe we'll go shopping all day and i'll burn something from that.

i feel so retarded right now.. an incredibly horrible feeling that next year (which is a mere 24 days away) will be very unpleasant has settled itself in the back of my head.

goodness gracious me ..

oh oh! CROSS COHESION DAY on monday. hahaha. i wonder why they named it "cohesion day". and why kaiming calls the "wet weather plan" a "wet day plan". ahha. interesting use of vocab at training.

[pat]* decided to runaway-.

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